#personal post
i hope everyone knows i read all the tags on my posts and i give a big ole thank you to everyone who’s been leaving nice comments on my ouch art
I’m sick, so no art for a few days
ive been listening to mbmbam regularly (like listening to every ep on the day/day after they come out) for two years and man im stuck in a time loop arent i
only thing stopping me from blowing up this stupid earth is a spoonful of honey in my tea
when ur mutuals change their urls avatars pronouns and names so many times but u always remember who they r
accidentally ordered two of the same book and they didnt give me a packing slip
Belif is my new fave skincare brand officially. Like i liveeeeeeeeeee for It
Also I turned 24, yesterday (happy belated b-day to me), and I wanted to say how grateful I am for this blog and my followers. I know I am not active like I used to be when I started this blog, I basically grew up on here and I plan on never deleting this blog, but maybe posting more and more.
Thank you for those who have stuck with me until now, I love you all and I miss interacting and writing and answering questions, but I will do that as well (so drop some, don’t be shy)
Thank you guys,
your truly, astrroloaries
materialsscienceandengineering:
Hey followers, I’m gonna interrupt your regularly scheduled posts for a bit of a personal question.
I’d like to know everyone’s opinions on grad school. Like, is it worth it as a materials scientist to further my education? I think I’d like to go, but I’m working full time at the moment and there are always monetary concerns to think about.
So if you went - how hard was/is grad school for you? Would you do it again?
Or if you’re planning on it, or didn’t go, why?
Feel free to message me or start up a conversation, I’m planning to speak to some of my coworkers who have masters degrees but I’d really like to hear everyone’s thoughts.
Thanks!
Thanks everyone for the awesome advice!
Earlier today, I was reminded of a convo I had with another friend/ client about vessels and bindings and it reminded me that I should make a post about it.
I forgot where I heard it but, bindings are just a means of locating where home is, in a sense. Binding to your spirit is the same as binding to a vessel. It’s not a cage or prison, but just a means to find where you or home is. Binding to spirit makes the connection stronger but some people have a hard time and prefer the physical vessel to hold during meditation and things like that. so it’s not a matter of how many you can have bound to you because, from my experience, it seems endless, but more a choice of how you want things to be done with your keep.
Now, I speak from experience as I’m very liberal with the movements of my keep. I don’t feel the need to tell them “stay home or else” because, as part of your spirit family, they have functions to perform.
For example, I always ask them to watch over my parents. They’re retired and walk all over the place unless they need the car for something or have to take the bus. I’d like to think that, not only are they watching over my parents, they’re watching over other people that could use their protection. So besides watching the house and my parents, there’s a library they can visit and a park. I don’t want them to feel bored or useless so they have every right to explore and discover and learn about the people in the area. Maybe even help other spirits move on.
So, while there’s a lot that can be done while you, as keeper, are home, there’s just as much they can do when you’re not and it’s like a learning experience for both of us. Trust is a two-way street and being able to have faith in them and treating them as we would like to be treated is something I feel is very important when bonding with your spirit family.
just a personal note
my day went from amazing to a total disaster today. i ended up crying constantly for more than 2 hours. i skipped dinner which is going to haunt me in the form of a migraine tomorrow..the crying will definitely add to it too. i messed up both at work and with family. had multiple panic attacks throughout the crying and i have never felt more alone than i did a few minutes ago.
the point of this post is not to get sympathy but to keep it very very real. shit happens. it may seem like a person who puts out positive words every day has everything sorted but that’s not the case.
we’re all in this together. we all have these shitty days when it’ll seem like it’s the end of the road. i kid you not, the way i felt today, i haven’t felt like this in a long time and it was just…i am completely drained right now.
i digress, but what i really want to say is please hold on. when bad turns to worse and you see no way out, please still hold on. just go to sleep if there’s nothing else that can be done. but keep holding on, no matter what. you are special and precious and your existence matters. your beautiful self may be a tiny dot in the universe but in the greater scheme of things, you have a unique role to play.
sending out love and strength to everybody who reads this and anybody who needs it. ✨
I’m stupidly excited over the meal prep breakfasts that I’ve made and I feel like that bodes well to me actually eating them. I think my lack of eating healthy things might be good because I’m craving things that are healthy. I just really want to eat everything I spent stupid amounts of money on… like yes the none-Food items we’re the bulk of the high costs to my shopping trip but I’m so tired of how wasteful I am. I’m tired of high grocery bills and still feeling like the majority of my meals are eating out. I’m tired of feeling like crap because of grease, sugar, and more grease. I’m just sick of it all.
I’m tired of feeling like crap, constantly gaining weight, and not being able to do things. I want to run a marathon. I want to be able to complete every move in the workout program. I want to take a dance class. I want to go zipling, and hiking, and kayaking, and learn kick boxing.
She is gaining too much weight, doing too little activity, smoking too much, sneaking and buying snacks because I cant keep watch 24-7, I think her blood sodium is rising because she’s confused and I caught her three times in the past 8 or so days just sitting up but had fallen asleep.
I cannot take this much longer. Every time I try to bring up how she has to make at least some effort to meet me halfway, I get a fight. I will stop buying any snacks. I already took her bank card and I will limit her cash even more if I have to. I will get power of attorney, conservator, something because she just cant seem to stop. She has very little impulse control and I’m afraid she’ll end up back in the hospital.
Tomorrow is the start of a new week and I am officially going harder. Some of the blame may fall on me. When she irks me, asks the same question too many times, or wants to challenge everything I say, I walk away and leave her be. It’s time to stop that and stand up every time. I dont care anymore if she doesnt like it, I’m not going to buy treats to appease her, I have to get serious since she wont or cant. It’s all up to me.
Me: I’m gonna post more often!
Also me: *goes radio fucking silent for months*
Pet aging, death, below the cut.
We’re taking my elderly poodle, Morgan in to be euthanized today. It’s time.
I’m waiting for my wife to get back from the film festival she was at in Pittsburgh. We’re spoiling him as much as we can until his appointment.
It’s been a week since my surgery! Sorry I haven’t responded to messages and so on, I’m only just getting back on my feet.
Kid me when the bisexual intrusive thoughts started winning
Porn is the only profession where amateurs are better than the professionals
Cool our power went out from a thunderstorm and our dog who always relied on her (now dead) older sister as a security blanket is fucking hyperventilating bc she doesn’t know how to regulate her own emotions. This is cool.
Hey please send us $25 so we can order pancakes? We’ll still have to go pick it up but like… Yeah.
Pls. My PayPal is [email protected]. We could use the pancakes.
UH. I WAS NOT ACTUALLY EXPECTING RESPONSES TO THAT.
Thank you to our gracious pancake gifters. We will deeply enjoy the pancakes.
Uh… okay, did not actually expect that, especially at 6:30 in the morning. Thank you pancake angels.
For the record, pancakes are now being acquired, and a solid half an hour of deep pressure therapy on the puppy has made her marginally more chill. She’s still having a hard time. I am also having a hard time, watching my dog grieve her sister for whole new reasons. We’ll all make it through. We just also can’t go to bed and hide under the weighted blankets we all like until the power comes back on, bc we’ll die of heat stroke without a functional AC.
At least there will be pancakes. Thank you again, pancake angels.
