Last summer, I saw three movies in one go by Joanna Hogg, including her latest, Exhibition,which stars Viv Albertine. Albertine’s performance compelled me to pursue her further, and conveniently, her memoir was released last November by MacMillan Publishing. I don’t often read memoirs but when I do, it’s usually by a singer who also happens to be a woman. In the last four years, I only read two memoirs that I really liked: Lady Sings the Blues byBillie HolidayandI Put a Spell On YoubyNina Simone. Both books were ghostwritten by white male writers.
Viv Albertine’s memoir Clothes Clothes Clothes, Music Music Music, Boys Boys Boys is entirely self-penned in what Dwight Garner dubs “an honest, lo-fi grace. If it were better written, it would be worse.” (New York Times). As a matter of fact, Albertine dedicates an entire chapter in the book to why she didn’t go with a ghostwriter and the resulting conflict between her and her former manager based on her decision; the chapter ends up becoming a heroic anecdote for all women who wish to write their own stories everywhere. (Women everywhere: Write your own story! Let it not be mediated through some poorly executed process that’ll water it down to some lame rhetoric that lacks your substance (your touch, your smell, your memory, your voice) and is instead a list of general events and public people that have all been written about again and again for years and years by the same old big ass corporate media channels that tell you that those same events and people are important when in fact they really have nothing to do with your touch, your smell, your memory, and your voice.)
Reading Albertine’s memoir feels like a long chat with an attentive friend—one who is older, wiser, more experienced and infinitely cool—the kind that’ll tell you that some awful things may happen in life but it’s fine because you’re an alright gal. Her voice is precisely the kind that I keep searching for in life. It’s good to have role models, especially one that offers instructions on how to be fearless in a world that is disdainful of women who think and create. There are not too many places women can look to for such instructions. As I read, Albertine’s illustrations of her own struggles, anxieties and triumphs spanning nearly six decades became a kind of soundboard for me to work out my own navigation of this life courageously.
Albertine’s memoir examines the stifled culture of her time filled with boredom and social atrophy that she and her peers revolted against—a “movement” which was eventually labeled the umbrella term “punk,” although Albertine herself doesn’t recognize any of those incidents under a light of such Romance. She has a frank way of elaborating on her scuffles, battles, tender moments—all the complexities that come with young relationships and collaboration. My favorite story of hers is the one about Sid Vicious asking her if he could wear her jeans but she tells him ‘no’ without mentioning why (a period stain). He later goes into her house with the excuse that he needs to use the toilet and returns wearing her jeans anyway, grinning, as if he then knew why she said he couldn’t wear them. The moment is so telling of each personality and the dynamic of their friendship.
Albertine knows full-well that the pressures around her reader will always disagree with who and what she is, but her memoir implicitly seeks to make the reader feel empowered, understood, and granted permission to trust her own instincts first.
Grace Jung is the author of Deli Ideology and producer of feature documentary A-Town Boyz, directed by Eunice Lau. Her translation of Lee Cheong-jun’s The Abject (벌레 이야기) is forthcoming at MerwinAsia Publishing. She is currently developing her first feature narrative and writing her second novel. She is a former Fulbright scholar and lives in New York. Follow her on Twitter.
This post is the first in a series curated by Grace Jung, guest editor of Literary Mothers in the coming weeks.
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Life ,,, is Like a box of chocolates for Black Women.
“Hoping for the best, prepared for the worst, and unsurprised by anything in between.” Maya Angelou “ I Know Why The Caged Bird Sings.”
“The Black female is assaulted in her tender years by all those common forces of nature at the same time that she is caught in the tripartite crossfire of masculine prejudice, white illogical hate and Black lack of power.
The fact that the adult American Negro female emerges a formidable character is often met with amazement, distaste and even belligerence. It is seldom accepted as an inevitable outcome of the struggle won by survivors and deserves respect if not enthusiastic acceptance.” ― Maya Angelou, “ “ I Know Why The Caged Bird Sings.”
Singer and songwriter Nina Simone wowed audiences as the “High Priestess of Soul” and an advocate for social justice. These inspiring quotes reveal her love and loyalty to the fight for change during the height of segregation:
✊ “It is an artist’s duty to reflect the times, as far as I’m concerned.”
✊ “Music is a burden and a gift I have had since my childhood.”
✊ “You got to learn to leave the table when love is no longer served.”
✊ “You don’t have to live near me; just give me my share of equality.”
✊ “The worst thing about prejudice is that while you feel hurt and angry, and all the rest of it, it feeds your self-doubts. You begin thinking, perhaps I’m not perfect.”
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