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And I want to believe that I’m not mad. That being sad is only for sad people. I’m not like them? I’m worse. Crying here in my lonely world praying that the sun consumes my tears before nightfall - before what’s ugly in me keeps me awake, on edge, gasping the bitter darkness in this world which chokes me.
When I was a little girl, I wanted to be a teacher. I used to talk about it all the time. When someone asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up, I would proudly say “I want to be a teacher!” Notice the past tense? That is because whenever I talked about being a teacher, my father would talk it down. He would ridicule what I wanted to be. I left him diminish my dream and ambition.
This post, What Teachers Make, really hit home with me. It reminded me of how badly I wanted to be a teacher and how I should not give up just because of what other’s may think.
‘If you ask for bread, your heavenly Father will not give you a stone.’ The sages call this a kal va'chomer inference (i.e., קַל וְחמר, “light and weighty”), namely, that if a light condition is true, then a heavier one is certainly true. Jesus used this kind of reasoning all the time: If God cares for the needs of the birds of the air, how much more (kal va'chomer) will He care for your needs? (Matt. 6:26). If God so clothes the grass of the field, how much more (kal va'chomer) will He clothe you (Matt. 6:30)? If your heavenly Father knows the number of hairs on your head, surely He knows the state of your soul. And if God wants us to walk in righteousness, kal va'chomer does He want us to know His love. Only God can give to us the love for Him that He fully knows we so desperately need; only God can deliver us from our “disordered loves” to take hold of what is truly essential. All we can do is ask, and keep on asking- even as we struggle on, despite ourselves- until we begin to understand what we really need.It’s as if we are constantly being asked, “Is this what you want?” and our choices confess the truthof what we believe. Only God does the miracle of real change within the human heart- only God can give life from the dead!
As misleading as it can be, God put you in the position you are in now because He has better plans. He has His reasons and I tell you, you won’t understand it right here, right now, but sooner or later the answer to all your unanswered questions will flash before your eyes without you even knowing it. Yes, failures hit hard and most of the time you find yourself sulking and crying and blaming yourself for inadvertent things that have happened and is happening in your life. It’s normal. Cry all your tears, sulk all your days and blame for all it’s worth. But promise me, after all the crying, sulking and the blaming, get your shit together and pick yourself back up. You’re one strong little fighter!
Maybe the answer isn’t really “no” but “not now”
Be a firm believer of perfect timing. Each day you plot things according your way. You set goals, priorities and you work your way to achieve those best laid plans. Little did you know that God is also constructing His perfectly designed blueprint for you. When things don’t work out the way you want them to be, you question Him without understanding that He has His own time frame. Everything will work out in His time, not yours.
Reward yourself for trying
No regrets, just lesson learned. At one point, you’ve already won because you tried. You took chances even with the possibility of failing. Rather have a life of “oh wells” than a life of “what ifs”. Failures give us chances to be better and wiser. And you gave yourself that chance. You may have failed now but don’t stop at once. Remember: there would be no Harry Potter nor Apple nor Disney if JK Rowling, Steve Jobs and Walt Disney stopped trying.
You are destined for greater things
It might be a bit vague for you right now and you still wonder why you didn’t make the cut. And as to why it’s happening for everyone else but you. Honestly, I also don’t know the answer to those questions. But I know He does. All I know is that there is something more in store for you out there. His plans are greater than yours. Maybe this company didn’t hire you cos a much bigger company will pirate you. Maybe you didn’t pass the supervisory exam cos sooner or later you will ace that managerial exam everyone’s been dreaming of. Think of the bigger possibilities!
Giving up is your mortal enemy
Justin Bieber might actually be right when he said “Never say never.” Giving up is the last thing you want to do especially when your heart knows this is the dream you want to pursue. A smooth sea never made a skilled sailor. Don’t stop just because you got scarred. Yes, you’re allowed to scream, you’re allowed to cry. But buddy, you are not allowed to give up. Don’t lose your faith. The most amazing things in life tend to happen right at the moment you’re about to give up hope.
So little fighter, believe things will be brighter. Pull yourself up! It may not happen to you now but stay on track and keep pursuing that dream. Never lose your focus. Look forward to the day that you will finally be able to say “I finally made it.” All efforts will be worth it, I promise you. When that day comes, it will be the most satisfying thing that will fill your heart’s content.
Apparently, this is a heartfelt article especially made for you from a 22 year old girl who just came back home from a failed airline screening.
