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Still sick, getting better, how is everyone doing?

So, as some of you may have gathered by my rants into the void at the beginning point of my kidney infection (which got a lot worse before it got better– I would like to bring you reassurance that I am finally on the mend and able to indulge in the joys of tidying my apartment and applying for jobs again and doing some independent contract work on the side from home atm while I source a counselling placement), I’ve been ill.

When I get ill, I get very very sick. And this renders me quite useless for two weeks at minimum because my immune system is a bit weird. So, naturally, because I was sickly for a long period of time, I got quite sad. Well, sad is an understatement– I felt like the worst and laziest person in the world and wondered if I had tried a bit harder maybe I could have perhaps gotten a lot more done. My doctor reassured me as I sobbed on the phone to him that my scans and blood and urine work indicated fully that I was not being lazy and I was genuinely at the brink of hospitalisation– I felt a little validated then.

But I still felt like a burden to my boyfriend who took days off work and worked his ass off at work only to come home and nurse me. I cried yesterday after trying to be strong through the illness because I know that me being sad makes him worry a lot. He’s the type to want to make all my worries disappear; he’s an angel tbh

While he was cheering me up, he suggested taking up writing smut again (LOL I know) and he even started to suggest a potential plot-line involving Gladio’s large penis penetrating Tidus’ hole, and Yuna summoning Anima to inflict some sexy Pain to pound everyone to Oblivion.

It had been two weeks since I laughed so hard. Gosh… I love my boyfriend so much

And so, I intend to write a little more often than I did last year, I might start predominantly SFW as I work on a NSFW piece for @tehrevving (yes, I got your ask lovely!) But yeah, I feel like I’ve ridden out my writing burn out and I’m ready to contribute to my favourite (likely a little dead) fandoms again!

I don’t know why I wrote this long post– I just suppose I’m grateful to my partner and I want to share how lovely he is Apologies if this was boring or too long-winded. I didn’t mean to clog up your dash with unwarranted sentimentality I don’t know, I just feel so grateful and happy that I have someone who understands all of me.

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your expectations for female characters become so fucking high after reading/watching fullmetal alchemist because of shit like this. Arakawa spoiled us. Opened our EYES. The sheer wasted potential of every female character in every other piece of media…your fave could never

bar is high, LETS KEEP IT UP THERE


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blindedstarlight:

Sooo it’s not food poisoning it’s a kidney infection eep. Painful but getting treated so all good!

Finally showing signs of improvement ☺️

blindedstarlight:

Sooo it’s not food poisoning it’s a kidney infection eep. Painful but getting treated so all good!

Finally showing signs of improvement ☺️

synchronmurmurs:A commission from @ NaiiYoo over on twitter!! I’d have linked their account proper,

synchronmurmurs:

A commission from @ NaiiYoo over on twitter!! I’d have linked their account proper, but I believe they may be on hiatus atm, since their account is locked? So not much point I’m afraid But I asked for this back in November last year? Just as a little pick me up for myself, but RL got hella hectic for them (as RL tends to do, especially after the year we’ve all had), so it didn’t get finished until today.

It’s a little nod to my Eye of the Storm AU wherein my OC, through the temporal abilities of a hybrid creature, winds up back in time and not so begrudgingly decides to save a child Vergil from his own fate. It ends up changing the entire timeline and tl;dr everybody is alive and happy, and Vergil is a well adjusted individual

I just wanted something a little softer for them, because my OC’s relationship with the OG Vergil is uh. HMM. NOT SO SOFT AND SWEET…

You can check out the two chapter introduction to this AU on AO3 if you’d like! I’ll be adding more to the series eventually; just extra little one shots that add to the AU because I never knew I needed soft Punchy/Vergil until I wrote this.


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synchronmurmurs:A commission from @ NaiiYoo over on twitter!! I’d have linked their account proper,

synchronmurmurs:

A commission from @ NaiiYoo over on twitter!! I’d have linked their account proper, but I believe they may be on hiatus atm, since their account is locked? So not much point I’m afraid But I asked for this back in November last year? Just as a little pick me up for myself, but RL got hella hectic for them (as RL tends to do, especially after the year we’ve all had), so it didn’t get finished until today.

It’s a little nod to my Eye of the Storm AU wherein my OC, through the temporal abilities of a hybrid creature, winds up back in time and not so begrudgingly decides to save a child Vergil from his own fate. It ends up changing the entire timeline and tl;dr everybody is alive and happy, and Vergil is a well adjusted individual

I just wanted something a little softer for them, because my OC’s relationship with the OG Vergil is uh. HMM. NOT SO SOFT AND SWEET…

You can check out the two chapter introduction to this AU on AO3 if you’d like! I’ll be adding more to the series eventually; just extra little one shots that add to the AU because I never knew I needed soft Punchy/Vergil until I wrote this.


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Sooo it’s not food poisoning it’s a kidney infection eep. Painful but getting treated so all good!

Today was such a write off I slept all day and I still have a mild fever lol. It’s definitely food poisoning though because I threw up and felt better. I have low blood sugar now though so like what do I eat/drink to not ruin my tummy?!

Ugh stuck in bed this weekend due to thankfully mild food poisoning.

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I slept poorly last night.

All because I am worried about my work situation even though I did secure a job that is work from home I am still thinking it’s not enough money but tbh it is it just means that I don’t have enough for floofy extras is all.

I can always apply for social security again in the meantime as I complete my placement hours and work part time, and I can just get another part time job if I really need to. The family business was way too toxic to stay involved in, and now I need to venture out again and start my career all over again I’m so doneeeee!

People my age have established careers by now but all this time I’ve been working for the sake of making other people’s lives better and easier at the cost of my own priorities.

Ah damn, I feel really good just ranting that out it’s like therapy but the void.

Is this… Is this what general anxiety feels like? Sure does! As long as I know this is just a protective reaction for fear of failure, then I can rationalise and move along with life.

Gosh I feel really good having got that off my chest.

Also no one has to respond to this or feel bad or sorry or anything. I’m not posting for likes or attention or anything of the sort just to make myself clear– I am typing this and posting simply because it feels cathartic and I really feel like I helped myself here.

I suggest doing this too if you struggle like me with swirling thoughts of uncertainty. Rather than giving the whole burden of your anxiety to a friend who might not be trained to take on the heaviness you need to unload, just type to the void.

You feel seen, you hold the hope of being heard, but give others the opportunity and implicit permission to simply scroll by if they are unequipped to help at that particular time. It’s great!

Anyway, that was a bit of a digression from Moosh the Therapist in Training (yes, therapists can have their own struggles with mental health, they just need to be self-aware of the impact this may have on clients in session and use visceral reactions to client/themselves productively for the sake of healing and helping).

Oh wow this post turned out really long.

I’m gonna hop away now and do something productive like get out of my pyjamas and clean the apartment lol.

blindedstarlight:

Okay, I’ve read the first chapter and I am thus far satisfied

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